Realization

i am sitting here, at my computer, in the bathroom, getting ready. I was putting on mascara, when i realized, i couldn't get my eyelashes just right. But then i realized, it was because i was crying. I started crying more, as i realized i was crying. But then it hit me, this year, was, overall, a great year.

As the year comes to a close, i prepare to rock out with my favorite people on earth. Some of them, anyway. I get to spend time with my favorite family on the planet, besides my own, me extended family, friends, and loved ones. I wish i could be with my family on this night, but i know that it's hard to be with everyone at once.

Have you ever cried when you hear a song that hits you? Yeah, it happens a lot to me. There are songs that make you feel luckier then ever, like Time of Our Lives, by Miley (another great person that i won't see tonight!), or Love for a Child, by Jason Mraz, which makes me feel terribly sad and makes me think about the divorce of my parents.

The songs that make you feel something are a good reminder of how you feel. You may not always be thinking about those feelings, like i wasn't thinking about how good this year was until now, when its almost gone. But it's nice to know that all the things that happened to me this year, really, truly mean something.

I would like to thank everyone who made this year possible for me. All my crew and staff, my co-stars, who i secretly hate ;), and all of my 2nd family. Without them, it would be impossible for me to have had such a great year. Since i spend almost 6 months with them a year, it's great that we can all be so close.

I've had a wild ride, huh? I was shot into this world of glamour as a tiny little 14 year old. I've grown, i've matured, but the feelings i'm feeling right now will never change. Seriously, im crying like a baby right now. I'm always so emotional. But i really want you to understand how grateful i am for all of this. I'll never be able to get across to you the feeling you give me, the love, the wonderful chance you've given.

So with exactly 6 hours and 44 minutes left of 2009, i love you.

no really, i love you,
a lot. more then you'll ever know.
yeah.

meagan, you're best friend, even if you've never met me.
im normal, like always.
thank you.

alright. for real now.
thank you.
Meagan.

2009 is a bad number...

I've never been a a fan of the number 9. It always seemed so weird, so odd. (haha that was a lame math joke.) This year, even though it was 2009, was a wonderful year. It was a year of many firsts. First Ellen special, first Oprah, First album, First magazine cover, first time in Europe. In a weird way, i think 9 might be a lucky number for me. I was nominated for 9 teen tv awards, i won 9. My boyfriend and i celebrated our 9 month anniversary in 2009. I officially moved to California on November 9th, two days after my show was signed. My middle name has 9 letters in it. Yeah, 9 is my new lucky number. I just laughed at myself. My first sentence was "I've never been a fan of the number 9." Until now, i guess. Channel 9 is on tv right now. I'm going to a party at 9. 9 is everywhere, i tell you. This year has been amazing, and i have the best fans in the world. I'm so pumped about this new MeaganSpace, that you all have started. That's awesome. Thanks for making my album number 1 for it's first 9 weeks out. That was killer. Thanks for making my tv show a smash hit, and thanks for making me a smash hit. My CT natives are all very proud, and we owe it all to you.

iloveyouuuuuallll!
Meagan

i love new years eve. can i just say that? i love them. SO MUCH. it's better than my birthday, because i don't have to worry about getting gifts i don't like..i hate surprises. New years eve is totally predictable. The midnight kiss, is somewhat creepy, when you share it with someone as creepy as my boyfriend :) But besides that, the night is good. You hang out with friends, family and celebrate a clean slate. Except for the previous stuff you still have to do with. It's also gonna be good because it will be the last time i party before tour. SAN DIEGO HERE I COME. well, i'm coming other places too, but mostly i'm ready for san diego. i take everything one step at a time. So for now, yay, happy new year.

lotsssssofffffloveeee!
Meg

Procrastination in it's finest form...

So here i am. Blogging. I'm supposed to be writing a book. A book that i have to finish by April...It's January. I have a lot more to do in my book, too. But i thought i would show you this true part of me. The part that puts things off until the last minute. I probably will stay up all night on March 31st writing 40 zillion pages in my book. I'm also writing a song now. Figures. Today was a good day. I went out to breakfast with my sister and Lucy. Then we picked up my sister's boyfriend and went to Target, also known as the best store on earth...but yes, today was a success. I came home, watched tv, and fell asleep. Which was very nice, because i often don't have time to take a nap, let alone watch tv. So it was nice to kill two birds with one stone. OH AND GET THIS. I'm invited to a party tomorrow, that all my old friends are gonna be at. I mean, i still talk to them all, but i never get to hang out with them unless i go to their school. So that will be most of my day tomorrow, at least 5 hours anyway. I fly to LA on the 3rd to pack for a good 2 months or so of tour, and then i hit the road on the 4th with my first show in San Diego. Do these blogs have limits? I'm getting closed to the last spaces in the box, but i want to push it and see how far it'll go. I'm like that, i cross the line as if it's my job. By the way, i entered a new line at the word "line," so i guess that answers my question. I feel like i'm in oss right now. My on set teacher always makes me have free writes, which are fun. I've always loved to write, because i could talk about whatever i wanted to. But yeah, blogging will now forever remind me of my teacher, Mrs. Scott. She's the best. And i'm not mistaken, her birthday is in January. You know who else's birthday is in January? My dog, Missy. She'll be 10. We used to call her the millennium pup, because she was born in 2000. So when it was 2005, she turned 5, blah blah blah you get it. Alright, so thank you for listening to my rambling on and on. I have to write this song, and then maybe a book.

lotssssofloveeee!
Meagan