Franz is a genius.

So i found my new favorite quote.
I don't know why i like it so much, but i do.
I'm in love with it.
If it were a man, i'd marry it.

For your enjoyment, i'll bold that parts that i love the most.

I think we ought to read only the kind of books that wound and stab us. We need the books that affect us like a disaster, that grieve us deeply, like the death of someone we love more than ourselves, like being banished into forests far from everyone, like a suicide. A book must be the axe for the frozen sea inside us.
-Franz Kafka

AMAZON.COM and the rantings of a bored lonely girl

AHHH. I haven't posted in so long. It's 6:44...i'm bored. I'm at boyfriends show, it's his birthday.

All day he's been using this "I'm 18" thing as an excuse to be a jerk.
He sits on me. He calls me kiddo.

I've had enough, but yet, i still like him. Hm. it's weird, right?

I went to the VMA's the other weekend, and that was great. I got to see Selena, who i miss terribly. (we had meatloaf the other night before i flew out here to boyfriend)

I saw Justin, and i saw Kesha, she's a sweety. I met SNOOKI! HAHAHA. It was wonderful!

Overall, it was a good weekend, but i really really really miss MTSMD.
I mean, DemDem and i are together now and we've been together all summer, BUT WE MISS OUR GIRLIES.

But good news, Saturday is Emily's (my co-star, my bff, my girl)seventeenth birthday. I'm throwing her a huge surprise party that night with all of our friends. It'll be kickin.

Right now i'm on the phone with my dad cause he can't figure out amazon.com...
Well...yeah.

"Shipping to Meagan...blah blah." Yep. My daddy.

So overall, all is good, i love you all!

And btw, my order has been received...THANKS AMAZON.

Godbless the Kingston Family

Today, I visited a childrens hospital here in Chicago. Along with meeting many beautiful children, i met a family.
A single father, raising two daughters. Jenna, who is 8, and Kayleigh, who is only 3 years old.

Kayleigh has Neuroblastoma, a rare cancer in infants. She onky has 2 weeks left to live-at the most.
Her father, Rob is only 34 years old, and spending everyday in the hospital with his sick daughter, and his healthy daughter.
Kayleigh sleeps a lot, eats little, and gets weaker with every day.

I was so deeply touched by Rob's devotion to his two precious daughters that i gave them three tickets to come see the august 6th show.
I sat with Kayleigh, Jenna and Rob today for 4 hours, just talking, playing with Jenna while Rob met with doctors and workers of hospice.

When Jenna and i were in a playroom, she explained how excited she was to see the show.
"I hope kayleigh will make it." She said calmly.
I didn't know what to say. This little girl had to hope that her younger sister would live 5 more days to see a concert.

I held my tears in as we walked back to the room.
I soon had to leave, But told Rob, Jenna and Kayleigh that i would come visit often, and email the girls to check in.

I have never cried so much in my life for someone else.

God bless Rob and his beautiful angels as they spend their 9th night in the hospital.

So now it's 12:37am and i cant sleep. Upset about how im tired and i want to sleep.

But hey, i have the good life here. Im in Chicago, getting ready to go on Tour, and im complaining.

Sometimes, i make myself sick.

Haphazardly attending triple date triathlons!

Wow. I can't believe it's been 2 years.
I remember summer 2008 like it was yesterday. My sister was taking drivers ed, and Nick and I were obsessed with the word "haphazardly", seriously, we used it ALL THE TIME.

Nick: "Hey look at those cars, they're parked so haphazardly."
Me: "AHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH."

Honestly, that was summer 08.

That, and going to In n Out with Kevin and Joe, triple dates with the 3 of them plus T and Dani, and the famous famous famous famous triathlon that i attended with the boys and my friend Robin.

Honestly, its crazy to think that all of that was 2 years ago.

Overall, i have the best boyfriend in the world, so here's to him and all his creepiness!

I LOVE YOU BOYFRIENDDDD<3

loveeeeeeeeeeeeee,
meagan

final thoughts

It is July 25th, 2010 at 11:21 pm, East Coast time.
I am in Atlanta, GA, filming my first ever movie, Perfect Harmony.
This is our last night of filming!!!!
Tomorrow i wake up, film, and then hop on a plane to big D<3

I'm absolutely thrilled that i got the chance to work with all the wonderful people that worked on this movie! I've had a great time.

But now, i'm pumped to see my boyfriend (who i havent seen in a month..literally.)and go on TOURRRRRR<3

I've been waiting for tour for so long. SO LONG..

scooter races and sparkly nails

The past few days have been wonderful.
I flew to Seattle to see the bieb. Love him.
I'm on tour with him now, hanging out.
We got yogurt yesterday, and watched youtube videos all night.
Today was spent mostly at my house pour moi.
I watched some tv with my little brother and sister, whom i haven't seen in forever.That was nice.
I chatted on the phone with Taylor, and texted Demi a lot.

I then rehearsed, because i sang two songs! AT THE STAPLES CENTER. I LOVE THE STAPLES CENTER.

OOOHHHH!
Justin and I found this awesome scooter in the venue today, just sitting there, all lonely in the hallway. It has 3 WHEELS! How cool is that?! Like i dont even care that i sound like im 6 years old, i think that a scooter with 3 wheels is killer. I posted a picture of it, go check it out and be amazed. So after we found the scooter, we rode it around the venue and said to everyone we saw "DO YOU SEE THIS SCOOTER? IT HAS 3 WHEELS. IT'S HELLA AWESOME." and bragged to everyone about how if no one claims it, we will take it with us to Paso Robles come tonight after the show.

We then decided to have team races. Bieber Team vs. Gunnip Team
I am proud to say that my small but mighty team of Me, Scott, Peter (my guitar tech), Josh (my gay bestie), and Jessica (my fabulous assistant) took down the team of Justin, Scooter, Kenny, Ryan and Tay.

It was a victory if i've ever seen one.

I had a killer sandwich for dinner, and then i performed, and boy, it was great.
After performing, i was watching TV in the green room (because i couldnt find any security to escort me into the crowd to see Patty and Joe, and actually be in the audience for a concert...) WHEN I SAW CATS ON A SUBWAY COMMERCIAL. and when i say catS (PLURAL) i mean like 50 cats dressed in marching band outfits. It was marvelous.

Then i painted my nails with 3 different types of glitter nail polish.
Big silver sparkles
Tiny gold sparkles
tiny purple blue and silver sparkles mixed

It looks like a fairy threw up on my nails.
I love it.

I figured my nails are festive enough for Vegas, since i'll be there in like two days.

So for now, goodbye.

loveyoulotsssss!
meagan

I need AC and to catch up with some FRENNNSS

So lately...hm.

A lot has been happening. We've been filming intensely every day.
We're almost done with half of the movie.

Actually, we're done with more than half of the movie.
We're done with 2/3 of the movie.

I have a week hiatus coming up. Because when i was on hiatus. recently, everyone else wasn't, so im getting double hiatus.

Wow, lets count how many times i just hiatus.

So yes, basically, i have a week to do whatever i want. Maybe i'll take an actual vacation.
Maybe i'll visit my friends in LA.
Maybe i'll go to texas.
I don't know.

But basically, it's 11:39, and we JUST finished working on movie stuffs.

I actually got to go tubing today with some friends, and it looks like they might use some shots of it for the movie, so T, Bri, Claire and Josh, you might be in my movie.

It's hot. This house does not have air conditioning. Remind me next time i live somewhere for a movie to rent a house with AC.

I'm excited to get back to my routine of I'm Only Me filming. You know, september-February, 9-2. Everyday. Hollywood Center Studios.

Anyway, goodnight loves<3